Musings of a Musical (and Wanna-Be Mommy) Mind

Frus. Strated.

2011-11-24T12:23:00.001-06:00

Grrrrrrrr.....

No thank you, Quik Trip.

2011-10-10T19:48:00.001-05:00

My everyday makeup products

2011-10-04T20:26:00.000-05:00

I love looking at all kinds of different blogs, and makeup/beauty reviews are one of my favorite categories. So here are the different everyday makeup products that I use when I actually wear makeup, which is definitely not so much anymore, I already get up at 4:15 for work every day and that's with no makeup in my routine! I can't seem to just do a few things, I have to do my whole face or nothing at all. I'm weird.

FACE

Primers: Monistat Chafing Relief Powder-Gel (no, this is not for vaginas)

MUFE HD Microperfecting Primer in 1 Green

Foundation: MUFE HD Invisible Cover Foundation in 115 Ivory

Concealer: Benefit Erase Paste in Light

Powders: Benefit Hello Flawless! in Champagne

Urban Decay De-Slick Mattifying Powder

MUFE HD Microfinish Powder

Blush/Highlight/Contour: NARS Blush/Bronzer Trio in Orgasm, Albatross, and Laguna

Setting Spray: MUFE Mist & Fix

EYES

Shadow Primer: Urban Decay Primer Potion in Sin

Shadow: Sephora Colorful Duo Eyeshadow in 08 Natural Brown

Eyeliner: Urban Decay 24/7 Liner in Zero

Mascara: Urban Decay Cannonball Ultra Waterproof Mascara

Brows: Benefit Brow Zings in Light

LIPS

Balm: Rosebud Perfume Co. Minted Rose Lip Balm

Plumper: Du Wop Lip Venom

Stain: Sephora Lush Flush Lip & Cheek Stain in 02 Pinot

Lipstick: NARS Lipstick in Cruising

PERFUME

Daisy by Marc Jacobs

Coach Signature

Waiting...and waiting...and waiting

2011-10-03T20:19:00.000-05:00

Looking around me is hard.

Everywhere I turn....babies. I am the lead teacher in the infant room at a daycare, lots of the people who live around me in my apartment complex have tiny children, just about everyone I knew in high school has at least one if not three or four kids. (Thank you Facebook, for showing me everyone and their gorgeous children.) And yet here I am, wanting to have a baby for over twenty years (yes, I have wanted kids since I was a kid, just ask my mom), and I can't try yet. We are waiting until Craig's job is permanent, we have better insurance, more of our debt is paid down, and we have a decent amount in savings. A lot of people keep telling us that we can't just wait until our circumstances are perfect, but I don't feel like that's what we're doing. I want to be able to stay home with our kids for a few years at least and not be constantly worried about money the whole time.

There is a positive side to me waiting to have my kids: the internet! And no, I'm not talking about finding out what to do if my kid has a fever or a random bloody nose. My thoughts on pregnancy, birth, breastfeeding, diapering, and everything else associated with raising have a child have changed quite a bit. I used to think that there was no way I would have a natural birth, much less be considering a home water birth with a midwife and doula. And I also thought that my breasts were too small to be able to breastfeed, but now I know that it's not the size that matters at all. If you would have asked me a couple of years ago if I was going to even look at my placenta, much less have it encapsulated and eat it, I would have looked at you like you were crazy! And don't get me started on diapers--I plan on either cloth diapering or using elimination communication.

If I had gotten pregnant any earlier than a few months ago, I would not be as educated as I am now. I still have a long ways to go towards having the experience I desire, but I am definitely on the right track. For those of you who have had these kinds of conversations with me lately (especially my girls at work!) you know I have some strong opinions about how I am going try to birth and raise my own children but I am really trying not to push my opinions on other people. If someone asks me questions or wants me to clarify something, I do so without making it sound like my plans are the only right way of parenting. I don't like it when people I don't know very well try to tell me, "Sure, you feel that way now but just wait till you actually have a kid--it's all different." Yes, I know I'm not a parent. Yes, I know everything changes the first time your child is in your arms. But I feel I am more prepared before ever becoming close to getting pregnant than many people are much further in their reproductive lives (like they already have six kids). I'm not just talking about my personal internet research. I have been working with kids for almost seven years and much of that time has been in an infant room. This has provided the opportunity to deal with lots of new mothers (not in a negative sense) and see all different sides of choices. I know that if I was planning on putting my child in daycare, a lot of my choices would need to be altered in some way. Again, this is why (even though my heart is breaking for wanting a baby so badly) I am glad that I am not with child. Yet.

Whew.

This post has been in the works for quite some time, and there's been some things going on lately that made me decide to finish this up and get it out there. So here it is.

To my husband

2011-09-27T19:26:00.000-05:00

I don't know what I would do without you.

As much as a person can love another, I love you, and always will. I know that our love will change over the years and I look forward to growing old with you. No one else understands me like you do and I doubt that anyone ever will. The way we fit together proves to me over and over again that God has a perfect person for each of us in this world.

No matter how many times a day I hug you, kiss you, and tell you my feelings, it can never be enough. So here's just one more.

I love you.

....femininity?

2011-09-16T21:34:00.000-05:00

Femininity (from the Disney movie Summer Magic, sung by Hayley Mills)

You must walk feminine
Talk feminine
Smile and beguile feminine
Utilize your femininity
That's what every girl should know, if she wants to catch a beau

Dance feminine
Glance feminine
Act shy and sigh feminine
Compliment his masculinity
That's what every girl should know, if she wants to catch a beau

Let him do the talking
Men adore good listeners
Laugh, but not too loudly (Haha)
If he should choose to tell a joke
Be radiant, but delicate
Memorize the rules of etiquette
Be demure, sweet and pure
Hide the real you <-------------Seriously???

You must look feminine
Dress feminine
You're at your best feminine
Emphasize your femininity
That's what every girl should know
Femininity, femininity
That's the way to catch a beau

This song makes me want to vomit.

You wanna know how I heard it? I got the 5 cd set of Disney's top songs to play in my classroom at work. And this song is on one of those cds. What a great message to send to children. Sure, there were 125 spots to fill, but surely a song like Reflection from Mulan (which didn't make the cut) would be a billion times better for girls (and boys) to hear.

Thoughts?

Testing

2011-09-10T22:33:00.001-05:00

I'm trying out the iPhone blogger app...just wanted to see what it looked like!

Yeah, I haven't really done a lot on here. I'm not surprised. Hopefully with this app I'll do more.

The Chinese food conundrum

2011-07-16T22:03:00.000-05:00

I eat all my greasy food first when we go to the Chinese buffet, then afterwards eat sushi and egg drop soup. Craig starts with the soup and sushi and moves to the heavier stuff. In my mind, it's like the rocks and sand in the jar metaphor. It's a lot easier to put the rocks in a jar first then pour the sand in because it will fill in the spaces. But if you do it the other way around with pouring the sand in first, the rocks will just sit on top of it and you can't fit as much.

Does this make sense? Do you eat your Chinese food in any particular order?

My head is gross

2011-06-30T21:15:00.000-05:00

Ok, so for awhile now I've only been washing my hair twice a week. I used to do it every other day (don't worry, I shower every day!) and after reading all kinds of articles about how hair and the scalp work I gradually spread out the washings until now it's part of my Sunday night and Thursday night routine. During this process I had Craig keep checking my scalp to make sure nothing funky was going on. He said that at first it looked pretty dry in spots when I was washing it more frequently but now it looks very healthy. Then a few weeks ago we went swimming at his parents' house and afterwards I felt this lump on my head. He looked at it and my mother in law looked at and they decided it was just a cyst. I couldn't stop picking at, wanting to pop it like a zit and have it go away. And now two nights ago I felt a hard crusty lump on the other side and Craig said it looked like another cyst except more advanced and it had exploded nasty gunky stuff in my hair. I managed to pick it all out but now I'm afraid of more showing up. Is this normal? Am I doing something wrong with my hair routine? My hair stylist says my hair looks good as well. Is there a way of helping your scalp stay clean without shampooing or is that the only option?

Boy or girl?

2011-06-29T21:41:00.000-05:00

As long as I've thought about having children, of course one of the first things on my mind is what gender my children will be. If I'm brave enough to have four I sometimes want to have two boys and two girls so each child will have a sibling of the same and opposite sex. My husband wants the typical boy and girl and for a long time that's what I thought I wanted as well....until I saw how crazy being a girl is these days. And I can only imagine it will get worse. We were at the mall a couple of weeks ago and while in line to get some bubble tea, we saw these two girls around 14 or 15 carrying Victoria's Secret bags and wearing way too much makeup, little tiny tank tops, and shorts that are only as long as the back pocket. It made me want to put a sweater on them and send them home to their mothers. Or maybe slap their mothers for letting their child walk out of the house like that. Or just curl up and cry at the thought that maybe the mothers expect their daughters to act like that, or gave up, or really don't care.

Now, I don't want anyone to get upset or offended at this. Of the many blogs I've had over the years, and mostly given up on eventually, I always had a post where I had to say that this is my space and my area to give my opinions. If you would like to share your opinion, as long as you don't tear me or others down in the process, you are welcome to comment.

Back to my point....

I don't know why I now think that having all boys would be preferable to girls, aside from the possible sluttiness issue. I mean, I wouldn't get to dress them up in frilly clothes! (Oh wait, I was never a frilly girl and don't give a crap about that. Silly me.) My favorite color is blue and maybe subconsciously I want a baby that I can dress up in all those beautiful shades without everyone thinking I have a boy. Who am I kidding, my kids are going to be naked except for their cloth diaper all the time! At least they will be if they follow the preferences of their parents....;-)

At this point I am so tired of waiting to have kids that I will take whatever is given to me: boy, girl, or anything else that decides to pop its head out of my hoo-ha. Oh man, this could get scary....

P.S. Sorry to those of you who thought I was announcing a little Buck in the oven...not yet.

*sigh*